Please, don't cry!
Mommy's here, Honey Girl!
Please, don't cry!
You wanted to nurse immediately
You proceeded to do so, pretty much for the next 9 hours
I am exhausted
I am overwhelmed
I nurse you, you fall asleep in my arms, I lay you down, you wake right up
I nurse you again, you fall asleep in my arms, I lay you in the swing, you wake up, again
Back to nursing you
I should know better than to lay you down again, but you won't even fall asleep now
Tried the sling
Tried to take a walk
Tried to lay you on your tummy
I can't even go to the potty for fear you will start to cry again
How come after 6 kids I still don't have all the answers?
You are so mad again
You won't even nurse now
This is breaking my heart
I start to cry with you
We are both blubbering fools now
Jesus, please help me!
How can I do this?
How have I ever done this?
Please send me help, Lord.
I gotta bring in the big guns... Karizma
She manages to calm you down for a minute, but I am still crying
Lord, I can't believe I am having a meltdown in front of my daughters
Karizma asks if she can pray for me
Humbly I say "yes"
She comes over, with you crying your head off in her arms, and prays the sweetest prayer
Lord, thank you for this moment
Thank you, because if I wouldn't have felt like I was about to crack, my daughter wouldn't have offered to pray for me
I am blessed
I am so blessed with 2 of the sweetest girls
I am feeling better already
I call Timmy to ask if he is coming home soon
He says he will leave work right away to help with Isabella
I remind him that per doctor's orders, he isn't even supposed to pick her up
He says it doesn't matter, he will
I send Jessica at 'Working on a full house' a prayer request
I come to bed feeling like I have had a bit of a jumpstart and you finally take the breast again
I am breathing normal again, even though my nipples feel like they may fall off
I am watching you eat, and slowly fall asleep and although I am so tired, I fall in love with you all over again
You are beautiful
You are darling
You are a slice of heaven on earth
Remind me to read this when we go through this all over again
Just wanted everyone to know that in real life things aren't always as pretty as I would love to say they are. It has been quite a ride with Isabella Grace. Whenever we take her off the mountain, the lady doth protest, and we are starting to think that she is a mountain girl, through and through. Will you all please lift me and my little girl in prayer? That we start to 'understand' each other. That she be content once she is nursed, and that I am content with the fact that she is a newborn and needs her mama for everything, including, just feeling loved. We are all in a wedding on Sunday and need her to be happy that day, so prayers are soo needed right now. Well, guess who is crying again. It has been a long 2 days, Sisters.
Psalm 18:6
In my distress I called to the LORD; I cried to my God for help. From his temple he heard my voice; my cry came before him, into his ears.
12 comments:
Praying for you Veronica and your sweet baby girl. Your older daughter seems very sweet and loving. You are blessed to have both your sweet girls and all of your boys. Praying things get better.
Veronica- Oh you poor thing. I do know how you feel and I have cried with everyone of my babies, some more than others :) Just know it will pass but for the time being hang in there!! Is she colic? I know when I was nursing Joshua could not tollerate chocolate, spinach and was very fussy. Just a thought.... also..... what about letting her just cry it out a bit? I know you are a sling wearing type and that is wonderful but some babies just need to cry(good excercise) I mean not forever. It is hard...extremely hard to do but I know we have been with Joshua and now I see some results, like riding in the car he does not scream anymore because he knows I wont get back there and tend to him or if I know he is clean, tummy full and he just is roaring over nothing I leave hime be.... I know you may not like this cause I hated it but am so glad I have been wisely told not to train him to scream to be tended to..... I dunno, just another thought. I hope you had a better day? Being a mommy is so hard at times isn't it? It feels as though the life can be completely drained from us and we have no more to give. I know now you feel week but remember to praise Him more in those times and you will find strength. I love you bunches and will pray for you....... rest and try not to let the screams get to your emotions too much.... just look at her screaming as good baby excercise... yeah right.... hehehehehe. Just joking. Bless you.
Jessica
Aaww sweety, I know EXACTLY where you are coming from, i have been there, some days i AM there but take heart in the fact that eventually she is going to tire herself out and she will give you a day of rest, She sounds exactly like my Bella, She gets sooo over tired that nothing will settle her not feeding not picking her up nothing, she falls asleep nursing because she is so tired but then wakes up hungry because she was too tired to finish nursing, its a vicious cycle, and what amazes me is that somedays the day just flies and i realise that she hasnt slept for more than 20 minute stretches here and there all day and i feel absolutely dry from feeding her all day , and then when you add to that 6 other kids well its no wonder i(you) feel like crying (((())))
What i do is wait(or try to hold out) until Joe gets home so he can deal with the other kids and cooking and whatever needs to be done and i take Bella in to the bath room, give her a nice long warm bath (i use a tummy tub) but if you just put a decent amount of water in her baby bath so her whole body is covered and let her soak so she relaxes for a few minutes, take her out, give her a little baby massage, dress her, swaddle her snuggly and then try and feed her, Most of the time Bella is pretty full from feeding ALL day and she just wants to suck for comfort so she is usually asleep pretty quickly and because she is relaxed she usually stays asleep. Hopefully this will be the start of breaking that 'vicious cycle'. A good sleep and lots of milk when she wakes up so she gets a good feed (and dont forget to stay well hydrated)should help her to have a more settled day. Remember she is still little and your both really still getting to know each other, I know i still miss Bella's tried 'signs' and when i do this whole thing starts again.
Huge hugs (((((())))) and just remember that God knows you can do this. Your a great mom and your everything that Isabella needs....
Anytime you want to talk you can just email me okay, I'll keep you all in my prayers
Cassandra xxx
I know I am not alone. I had one of these days yesterday. Lily was up four times the night before. I was trying to clean, house, discipline, homeschool, and comfort a teething baby. I just sat down and started crying. Marcus (my eight year old) said for me to just go lay down and he would watch Lily. So I did. I couldn't sleep, but I did rest. when I came out of the bedroom, the two oldest boys had cleaned up the kitchen, living room, dining room and homeschool room! What a blessing. By the end of the day, I had done my Bible study and was even able to read a few books to the little ones. I cried out to God in my distress and He carried me through a really rough day. Last night, Lily slept through the night! God gave me the gift of a full night's sleep! Thank you!!!!!
I'm so sorry things are rough right now! Saying a prayer for you. Hoping things get better soon...wish I had some encouraging words.
I know the Lord will give you the strength and grace you need to make it!
Wow Sis this is a very intense post..I can feel your pain. I'm already getting lots of good advice from great moms on how to handle/avoid these moments. LIFE happens but God is ALWAYS there! Looks like the Lord spoke to you through Karizma's prayer! She's such a wonderful testimony of God's love! Praise God for the peace he gave you! "He will never leave us nor forsake us" I will pray<3
I don't have any great words of advice since my first little one is still baking but I wanted to offer you up a prayer and wish you luck and tell you that this too shall pass!
I read a quote once that said "I used to have 6 theories for raising children - now I have 6 children and no theories!" I think of that often when I wonder what I would do in different situations.
Have fun at the wedding and know that you are loved!
The truth and nothing but the truth!! :) I know how it is. Life is not always so happy, cheery, and walking on roses. When we are in the midst of raising teens, potty training, cleaning up after our little guys, and nursing a baby every other minute makes us feel like "hello, God, where are you??"
Sounds like she is having a growth spurt. I know it feels like she will never be off the breast. But as soon as the milk she is demanding (supply and demand) comes, in a few days you will notice some normalcy. So sit back and enjoy this time. Thank God for your big kids. How sweet to have a Godly daughter. My 11yr. girl is just like Karizma. So sweet and prays for her mama. Oh and what a great hubby also!!!!
Chris
I got all tense and teary eyed just reading this. Even though did things very differently as my babies were "Babywise" babies, Babies will cry at times and it really hurts the mommy´s heart.
Metabalism plays a big part in their happy wake time. Babywise explains it. You don´t have to do all it says just the ideas are so good. I still wore my babies too though a bit. ;) and by our third I was very flexible. He was the screamer and had heart problems. But Praise the Lord we got through. He had to have open heart surgury by the time he was a year.
But thanks to babywise he still slept through the night from the time he was 9 wks. I was flexible but with three babies under the age of three we needed all the help we could get.
Just wanted to lovingly share with you maybe the other side. I have read about baby wearing and demand feeding, but chose the other side. I hope this does not offend. I felt burdened to share it with you .
Your daughter praying was so special! I am sure this bonded your hearts so much more.
I wanted to leave you an award as well, because I think you are so creative with your words. and this post touched my heart so much.
Please accept the Kreativ Blogger award. You are special and I will pray for you all right now.
Wow. You made me cry just reading about that. What a precious girl your Karizma is!
Oh I just know that God let me read this post TODAY for a reason! i've been feeling like it has been the longest 2 days and am tempted to break out the formula wondering if he is getting full or what's going on. But i wait it out and eventually he goes to sleep.
Karizma has such wisdome in praying for you! THank God for big sisters! I keep wondering how it is possible to have kids before having a big sister to help!
Oh I just know that God let me read this post TODAY for a reason! i've been feeling like it has been the longest 2 days and am tempted to break out the formula wondering if he is getting full or what's going on. But i wait it out and eventually he goes to sleep.
Karizma has such wisdome in praying for you! THank God for big sisters! I keep wondering how it is possible to have kids before having a big sister to help!
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