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"miss your blogging"

My sweet bloggy friend, Jen, over at The Kindle Family, sent me this comment the other day. It blessed my heart and I told her I would blog...yesterday. I didn't. Forgive me, Jen.


Then, I got this email:

"Just a friendly reminder that it’s been a while (11 days) since your last blog post. I know I, and likely many others, are hungry for more. I know you are extremely busy, so this is just a friendly reminder, not pressure. But if you ever want me to take all of the kids (including Belle) on a walk to Barnes and Noble or on a drive to Costco or Walmart to walk around so you can update your wonderful blog, I’d be more than happy to do so!

XOXO"

You think my dear husband really wants another blog post? I didn't realize that people really do expect me to keep this up and that some of the people I love the most, like those above, are missing me...Hope I don't disappoint them, since this post will be a purge of the mind so to speak, here goes...
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Been busy.

What's new.

But, I do have many good reasons for being so busy.

My Sweetheart and our offspring...7 to name a few.

I also have been leading a class at church for nursing or about to be nursing mommies. It blesses my flip flops off. I will post about that later.

The sun and this weather make me long for friendship, so I have been trying to do more stuff with friends. I am realizing I need more hours in the day. Thank God for a husband that encourages me to hang with my girls.

I am really excited about one thing! In exactly 6 months, from yesterday, I will be attending my 20th highschool reunion. CRAZY. I can't believe I am old enough to say that! Crazy cheeseballs, right? I can still recall walking down the hallways, in my cute Guess skirt and slingback flats, wearing a can of AquaNet in my hair, thinking I was the cutest thing since the Gerber baby. And that perm. Oh, Lord. That perm. It put poodles to shame.

So, as I pondered if I should even go, I started to think of what others may think of me. Will they think I have gotten so fat? Will they think my hair is boring? Will they think I haven't aged well? Thinking that they could be so superficial as to only look at the outward. Shameful. Because, I went to school with so many awesome people. People that had substance. Our class rocked! I know that I want to see how everyone is doing. I am not wondering about how anyone looks, because thanks to Facebook, I already know, ha ha. Anyway, thanks to Cyndi, my junior high best friend, I will go. She convinced me. She made me commit. I am glad.

And even if I am not going to go all worried about what others will think of my outward appearance, it is a good reason to set a goal for myself. I am giving myself 6 months to look better. I don't want to set myself up to fail, so I am not giving myself a weight goal, or a size goal. Just want to look and feel better. I am not going to cut everything out, but really be aware of what I am putting in my mouth, and make sure to walk 2-4 miles at least 5 times a week. I am hoping once we get our Y membership next week, I can add in a few Zumba classes. I can't wait to do those with Karizma. We are both so clumsy and uncoordinated that it should be a funny thing to watch...good thing we have eachother.

I do hope to post before and after pictures as time goes on...I am hoping that putting this out there on my blog will keep me accountable. I have been telling everyone because I am so excited about going! I just want so much to share with everyone how much I have changed from that girl 20 years ago. What God has done in my life! How trusting him for everything gives me such joy and peace! I want JESUS to use me in a big way! I will be praying for the class of 1990 and for the day we all meet again. I will pray that they also not beat themselves up. That they come and have fun and talk about the good things in their lives like their kids, and their spouses, and their jobs they are so blessed to have, regardless of what it may be. It was great hearing from Cyndi how so and so is now a pastor, and so and so is in this ministry and that. The class of 90' came to the Lord within these past 20 years. Someone was praying! I will continue to pray! GO COLTS!

And as I type, in reckless abandon, I realize my dear husband set a plate of pancakes with a ton of syrup in front of me, and I went to take a bite, not even thinking about what it was. The sweetness of the syrup set me back...step away from me, SUGAR!! Better go grab a banana.

BETTER ME, here I come!